Love Letter to Sylar

Dear Sylar,

You may find it surprising to be receiving a love letter, given your current status as a brutal, remorseless killer. However, I suspect you will instead think it only natural. You are, after all, very special. Even though you have just recently murdered one of my favorite people, leaving me uncommonly displeased with you, I find even now that I cannot resist your twisted sense of humor and ghoulish charms. While others, understandably, hate and despise you for ruining their lives or killing their loved ones, I am contrarily pleased with you for being so very good at being so very bad. Life would be so abundantly boring if there was no natural need for balance and therefore a natural need for heroes and villains. Though I sometimes quietly wish (never more intensely than when Micah finally voiced it himself) that you would side with your own, using your powers for good or at the very least for killing that creepy Danko, I find that I rather prefer you accepting your innately evil nature and mischievously making our heroes' lives more trying.

Never since first being introduced to Dexter Morgan have I loved and emphasized so fully with a serial killer. When you flash your cocky smirk and declare that your wicked schemes are so very fun, I can't help but grin delightfully with you and agree wholeheartedly with the sentiment. You are the very thing that shows the Dark Side for what it can be, tempting the soldiers of good out of the light and into the shadows since the beginning of time. While your enemies toil in confusion and seriousness, while they pout and complain, dodge along the morally gray line and live in overall pain and chaos, you fine joy in the simple things in life and live every day past the limits of your potential.

But this isn't the only thing that defines your devilish appeal. Before, when you were merely a veiled figure in the shadows, you were so much more frightening, but you lacked humanity and therefore lacked any real allure. Now however, I know you better and you are so much more than an evil clockmaker out to bring misery for misery sake. You show your deep need for acceptance and love with every person you cruelly murder, with every journey of self-discovery and with every indifferent chuckle. In the rare instances where your humanity shines through - the fervent, however temporary, desire to be good, the understanding of heroes that do not even understand themselves, the occasional helpful act in the name of good- you prove to be one of those highly complex and deeply contradictory villains that have excited all of literary history.

Personally, I find egotistical men very unattractive and I don't wish to blow up your head too much - but you are just too damn cool. If I wasn't so sure of your solid and resilient character, I'd be fearful of ever seeing you again (since you now reside deep, deep under a Nathan Petrelli exterior). But I am sure of your strength of character and sense of self, and even though the pain from the loss of Nathan ( I am VERY angry with you about that, by the way) is still fresh, I can hardly blame you overly much. It is, after all, in your nature to prove yourself as unique and special (since you have killed everyone that has ever loved you, all you can have now is your enemies' fear and respect) and it was rather stupid of Nathan to go up against you with such a passive power while you have so many aggressive powers at your disposal.

I hope to be seeing you again soon. Life will be dull and colorless without your shiningly dark presence to spice it up. Until then, I suppose I can make due with a Nathan-Sylar hybrid. It is, after all, a marvelously cruel deception.

Ever Yours,

Lauren

Heroes 12/15

"On the sixth day, God created man in his own image. Now it's up to us to figure it all out; right, wrong, good, evil. In each of us is the capacity to decide what drives our actions. So what is it that makes some choose selflessness; the need to devote oneself to something greater, while others know only self-interest; isolating themselves in a world of their own making. Some seek love, even if unrequited, while others are driven by fear and betrayal. There are those who see their choices as dark proof of God's absence, while others follow a path of noble destiny. But in the end, good, evil, right or wrong, what we choose is never what we really need. For that is the ultimate cosmic joke, the real gift that God has left behind."

I love it when someone besides Suresh narrates an episode. It really gives you a good feeling of change (which is a very good thing for this show) and it also spices things up a bit. Make Sylar the narrator for the first part and you've got thriller gold. I enjoyed how bitter and resentful him seems towards God because it seems so like his character. Sylar's thoughts on God aren't exactly something you'd immediately wonder about but it's a very interesting character development. Just as he constantly seems to wonder and worry about what other people think of him, he must also wonder what God sees in him. I believe Sylar is one of the few deeply complex characters on television today (Gregory House also comes to mind). His constant flux between being a whole-hearted monster, being a reluctant monster, fighting to be freely evil and fighting to be freely good has been one of the most entertaining and interesting character transformations I have ever watched.

Warning: Spoilers Ahead

After this episode, the conclusion episode to the "Villains" chapter, some might now worry that Sylar is dead, blown to little pieces by Clarie's accidental nuclear mother (who now is most certainly dead herself). I would be VERY surprised if this were the case, especially since I've already heard about future Sylar plot-lines involving his new mission: finding his real parents. So, most likely his recently Claire-Bear-acquired immortality will have kept him alive through the motherly blaze and resulting building collapse. Though I have heard that the Heroes writing team is going to start cleaning houses, aka; killing off there two-tons of characters, I do not believe Sylar will be one of them. He is too great a character and holds way too much potential for chaos and villainy. So fear not, my faithful Sylar-lovers. Our man should still be around next chapter to cause trouble and strife (and hopefully for that backstabbing, hypocrite Nathan Petrelli).

Oh Nathan. What can I say? Should I refer to Suresh's narrated monologue on how everyone contains both good and evil within themselves? Or should I quote you? "You're breaking my heart". Yeah, ok, I get it. Everyone has the potential to be good or to be evil and Nathan Petrelli has always leaned more towards the dark-side so it shouldn't come as a shock that he's chosen this particular path. One might even argue that it's not a villainous path but a heroic one. He wants to save the world, to help it. He thinks he's doing the right thing and that is by far the most heartbreaking part. But even if you could give Nathan some slack for at least having his heart in the right place, that would never excuse his intentions and actions towards his brother. That's the deal-breaker, at least in my opinion. Nathan is so zealous and determined to save the world that he is becoming evil in the process. It is NOT ok to try to kill your brother just because he doesn't agree with your choices! Bad Nathan! And that goes for you too, Peter. Except, Peter saved Nathan, despite the fact that Nathan was on a roll and only too eager to beat his own brother to death. That's the line. Right there. That's the moment where Nathan's gray becomes black and Peter's gray becomes white. It's a sore loss to the side of good to lose Nathan Petrelli. They will just have to make due with Peter. Let's just hope his dark and scar-filled future has now been pushed in a different direction. Cause Future Peter? Scary.

So I know you must be sick of hearing me rambling on about how much I heart Sylar, but seriously...this guy is awesomely diabolical. Right?! Seriously, who thinks up this stuff? Pumping Clarie's mother with adrenaline so she looses control over her fire ability? Locking HRG in the cell with her? Giving Claire a choice between saving her dad from a fiery fate or protecting Angela Petrelli? Is that even a choice? Seriously, who even likes Angela? Sylar knew who Claire would pick. Too bad he fell prey to a villain's most cliche mistake: too much talking and not enough killing. Instead of getting his kill and not to mention getting his parental info from Angela, he got a nice thick shard-o-glass to the brain-pan, courtesy of a mightily ticked off former cheerleader. My younger sister always said to never underestimate cheerleaders and now I think I know why. As much as I love Sylar, even I have to admit that it's about time he got a taste of his own bad-tasting medicine. As another side note about Sylar's character, it's very interesting how much he craves to know that he is not the only monster among all the characters. It seems that he still has some reservations about being evil (though he also seems to have come to terms with his monstrous destiny), seeing his obvious need create villains out of heroes. Maybe this would make him feel vindicated in his actions and also less alone in the world. Oh wait...if he hadn't killed Elle, maybe he wouldn't be so alone now. She was the perfect evil jelly to his evil-y crunchy peanut butter. Perhaps he enjoys being alone after all...

What else can we discuss? Daphne seems to have embraced the good side, which is a relief. I find it curious how the show tries to steer clear of any serious PDA scenes between the new couple. Maybe that's because she looks about 12 and he looks..well...his age. There is a small amount of creep factor in that whole relationship, but I'm working to get past it. Also, whippie for finding out about Ando's future (and now new) power. Still, Hiro's going to be even more on his guard around him now and that never makes for a fun friendship.

What's the future like now that the formula has been destroyed? How much has changed and how much has stayed the same? Will Sylar still have a cutesy baby boy that he will love and protect? If so, who's the mom? Will Peter still eventually turn Scarface and be tracked down by dark-Claire? Will Claire still make the huge mistake of coloring her hair black? The only things that I can think of that make me believe that the future has been changed is Suresh and Tracy. In the future Peter and Matt saw, Suresh was all scaly and gross and not fit for public outings, but now he's cured. Will he seek out Maya or stick with Ice Queen Tracy? And now that Tracy has been fired by Nathan, does that mean she will no longer be Future First Lady to President Nathan? It seems that at least some of the future has been changed. But is it changed for the better? The Butterfly Effect is in full swing so what can we expect from the future now? Something even worse than before...or a brighter horizon?

"There is good and there is evil, right and wrong, heroes and villains and if we're blessed with wisdom, then there are glimpses between the cracks of each, where light streams through. We wait in silence for these times, when sense can be made, when meaningless existence comes into focus and our purpose presents itself. And if we have the strength to be honest, and what we find there, staring back at us is our own reflection, baring witness to the duality of life. And each one of us is capable of both the dark and the light, of good and evil, of either, of all and destiny, while marching ever in our direction, can be re-routed by the choices we make, by the love we hold onto, the promises we keep."

Heroes 12/8

It's that time of the week again. Yup, you guessed it: Heroes discussion time. But since my Heroes blogger buddy (coughcorriecough) is so very behind on the episodes (work has been crazy, so it's totally understandable) I have less reason to spend a lot of time discussing the Heroes happenings. So I'll make this week's ramblings short and sweet...and with lots of pictures cause you know how much I just love pictures.

Warning: Spoilers ahead.

What we know, via last night's episode:

1) Hiro and Claire together make for some seriously funny entertainment. It's funny to think that most of the characters in this show have met, fought, loved, flown together at some point in time but that Hiro and Claire have never actually met before. I feel like they must be the only two main characters introduced to us that haven't had some kind of interaction in previous episodes. Anyway, we have been seriously deprived because they are very interesting together.

2) We now know about Hiro's mother. Or maybe we already knew...and I just forgot. This show can get kinda complicated, if you haven't already noticed. Either way, Hiro's mother is a healer, which explains why Hiro needed to go back in time; he needed his mother to fix his memory. Funny, how his mother ended up with the same ability that Linderman had and how Linderman healed Angela Petrelli's memories, giving her the ability and reason to kill her husband before he killed her son, Nathan. Ok, are you picking up on the complicated yet? Anyway, I find it sad and also predictable that Hiro promised his mom with such heartbreaking determination that he would keep the catalyst safe and then mere minutes later he lets Arther Petrelli take not only the catalyst, but his powers also (leaving him stranded 16 years in the past). His papa is gonna be SOOOOOO angry with him and that's an understatement.

As an added hysterical note, why is that none of the these time-traveling characters (Peter, Hiro, etc) have learned that tampering with the past ONLY causes more problems and never solves anything?!!?!?!! It's almost as if they have to give up all their common sense in order to have these extraordinary abilities. Is it really worth the cost? Jeez.

3) By far the worst confirmed revelation, Sylar did kill Elle dead, very dead and all dead. Not only that, but he sat there and BURNED her body!! Poor Kristen Bell. I will forever mourn the potentially ass-kicking relationship we could have watched unfold over numerous seasons. So, does this mean that the future Peter saw, the future with Sylar and his son Noah, is no more? Or does Sylar again use his strangely attractive psycho-killer appeal to seduce some other poor gal into bed? Claire perhaps? Yes, I know it's an insane theory, but come on, who wouldda thought Sylar and Elle would have happened, especially after Sylar killed her father. It seems that anything is possible in our Heroes world and I'm betting my less than considerable pile o' cash on a future Sylar/Claire baby-making scene. I mean, why else would the boy be named Noah? So put that in your pipe and smoke it!

4) Creepy killer Sylar makes me laugh. Best line/scene thus far in Heroes (and your QotD):

Co-workers burst into office with presents.

"Happy BIRTHDAY!", they all merrily shout.

Sylar gets up off the floor, murdered girl at his feet, blood and brain matter dripping off his hands, looking very creepy...

Sylar: Cake?

Sylar gives an excited smile.

Best scene EVER!

5) Nathan Petrelli is officially on-board with his father's evil plan. And that SUCKS! But I guess it causes more drama to have one brother on one side the other on the opposite side. Seriously though, if they have to have a showdown (which I'm sure they will) I'm gonna be pissed if either die.

6) It's interesting seeing Matt, Daphne and Ando working together, but I miss the comic book guys. It's so sad to experience great characters and then have them leave so soon. Either way, I guess their mission to find the unpublished last comic will lead Ando to getting the power that he might eventually kill Hiro with (seen in an earlier episode). I love when future events start to get explained in present situations. It helps with the tearing-out-your-hair frustrating and confusing storylines.

7) HRG can be trusting of a stranger. Who knew? Is it just because the stranger seems oddly familiar to him? Is it because of her use of "Claire-Bear" that softens his heart just a smidge, enough for him to ignore a very important and life-changing phone call? Whatever it is about the cute blonde stranger, I'm loving the new dynamic between them. I'll have some more, please.

8) So, with Arthur Petrelli sucking up the catalyst, the formula is now complete. And introducing...drum roll please...the All American Super Solider. He can break you in half with his pinky, but ain't he just the cutest thing?

9) And...thank you Sylar! Not only are you eerily sexy, but you can certainly come in handy when there's killing that needs to be done. Now Peter can have a semi-clear conscious and we still get the kill we have been rooting for all season: Arthur Petrelli. Shot in the head and dead dead dead. Though as Peter speaks over his dead father: "It's over"...you get the feeling it is so very far from over.

That's all for today folks. In my opinion, this show is steadily getting better and if Brian Fuller, fresh from the cancelled Pushing Daisies, comes back it's bound to get even better.

Heroes 12/1

All right! Shall we get down to biznas (that's "business" for you non-cool people). Let's jump right in!

I know there are a lot of people that have become disenchanted with this show. I understand, really I do. Last season was really crappy compared to first season and though this season has been infinitely better than last season, it's still not up to par with the first season. It's almost as if the writers used up all their awesomeness on first season scripts and now they have run out of fuel. Seriously, they should have classes for TV writers on how to ration awesomeness. Still, when I commit to a show with this much potential it takes a lot more than a few shallow, unneeded characters, a little loss of story integrity, and some far-fetched (and that's saying a lot for a show like Heroes, right?) plot-twists to throw me off the bandwagon. Despite all its flaws and without fail, every Monday night has me on the edge of my couch, biting my nails and screaming curses and shocked exclamations at the television set. Once the 9 o'clock hour rolls around I'm instantly immersed in a thrilling, frustrating, sexy and intense story and judge all you want but you can't deny the pull of this show, even at it's worst moments. I feel like the show has been getting steadily better throughout this season, with the last two episodes being two of the best I've seen thus far...but I'm obviously a bit biased, no? I suppose you can't really take my word for it, but you could...if you were super smart. Anyhow, let's talk about last night's high points!

So, I would characterize myself as a man lover, wouldn't you? You certainly would if you've read any of my Smallville or Supernatural posts. I enjoy staring and drooling over a nice manly face and body as much as the next fine lady, but let's all agree...Kristen Bell has some nice stems, yes? I can see why she is so appealing to Sylar...and all the men of our world too, obviously. She ran around with naught on her petite frame but a big t-shirt the whole episode and I can't say I didn't appreciate the view. However, the jealous part of me couldn't help but feel slightly vindicated when taking in her bloody condition. Ha! That's what you get for having such nice legs! You get shot. That's right, sister! Not to mention, you hang with Sylar and you're bound to get either mostly or completely dead (we'll come back to that) sooner or later.

Anyhow, the development of the Sylar/Elle romance just tickles me and I love every scene with them. Kristen Bell's and Zachary Quinto's real life friendship really translates to the screen and you can't help but feel their chemistry. As I said in a previous post, the two actors are gold together, therefore the characters are gold together. And that's how you find me comatose as the 10 o'clock hour approached on Monday night. The whole coma thing didn't last but a minute and as Hiro teleports Claire to the past (more on that later) I barely noticed since I am now screaming something along the lines of "WHAT THE F**K?". Seriously, that did not just happen! Sylar did not just revert back to creepy, evil Sylar and finger-flick a bloody line across Elle's forehead! Wasn't it only a couple scenes ago that Sylar sacrificed himself to HRG so that Elle could get away? He got his throat slit for Heaven's sake! Honestly, what happened in the 5-10 minutes between besieging the Bennet's and Hiro transporting him to some beach getaway that he suddenly felt the need to chop people's tops off again? Was it the fear of being betrayed by Elle and his maybe/maybe not Petrelli parental units? That's honestly the only explanation that I can think of and I suppose it's something to be concerned about, but not a good enough reason to kill your new, nice-legged psychotic lover (and potential baby momma! There goes that theory, right down the drain!). Still, I'm holding on to hope that its all a big farce and Elle's not really dead. We didn't really see her die and it's rare indeed when anyone permanently dies on this show so I think it's a rational hope. But I can't help but feel betrayed by the Heroes writing team. The tantalizing taste of good-Sylar was like a drug you just can't take away from us! What a tease! How horrible of you to offer us Sylar's redemption and then snatch it away in a moment of lunacy! I'm shocked, really! Anyway, moving on...

How much did you love Sam and Frack, the comic book guys? I, of course, have loved Seth Green since his Buffy days so it's always a pleasure to see him on TV but this was one of his cooler characters, by far. I for one would love to see more of them, not just because I love the actors but because introducing their characters to help Hiro solve his problem by reading comics is the epitome of Nerd Central, one of my many dwelling places. That storyline may seem ridiculous to some but I thought it was brilliant. I'll have some more please, massster.

There is tons more to talk about but I think I used up all my writing energy on Sylar and Elle. I guess I should attend that course on rationing awesomeness too, huh? Let's hit a couple more points and then call it day. Sound good?

Point 1: It's a bird! It's a plane! No...wait. Oh, never mind. It's just Nathan Petrelli flying away from his goodhearted and loving brother and into the arms of his evil, immoral father and should-be-killed-off-soon lover, Tracy (Ali Larter). I mean, would it really have been that hard for Peter to again stress that he's been to the future, he's seen what Nathan becomes and it's just a BAD idea to continue down that path? And SERIOUSLY, has Nathan not learned his lesson yet? Stop flying your sexy self to the bad-side and stick with Peter! He knows his shit! Jeez!

Point 2: I heart Matt Parkman, I really do but I'm getting a little tired of the whole Daphne thing. I am not feeling one ounce of sympathy for her character which tells me I don't really care about this storyline anymore. She's whiny and untrustworthy and I think Matt could do a lot better.

Point 3: I'm totally digging the Hiro/Claire time-travel development. It seems like a pretty good idea to me and it might lead to some mending of the Clarie/HRG relationship. Not that I believe he deserves forgiveness for being a bad father but his intentions are always good and it would be nice to feel like we can trust him again now that Sylar has gone all sexy devil again. I can't believe that they are really trying to set up another role reversal so soon after changing things around on us at the beginning of the season. It's a Topsy-turvy world, I tell ya!

And that's about it, folks. Comments, questions, rude accusations? That's what the comments section is for. Have at it!

Tuesday Ramblings

There are so many great things to talk about today, I can barely contain my excitement! But then again, Tuesday always follows Monday and Monday is Heroes night, so for me the excitement isn't unusual. Hey, it's the little things. I'm easily entertained. So, let's get started.

Corrie, Ryan and Tina can all testify to my expectant and excited cries of "SMOOCHIES! SMOOCHIES!" during last Monday's Heroes. As I quivered and jumped around on my couch, hoping to see some Sylar (shirtless, yum) and Elle lovin', it did occur to me that I shouldn't be living so vicariously through the possible, and totally hot, love scene between two psycho serial killers. But in all honesty, Sylar (Zachary Quinto) and Elle (Kristen Bell) have become my two favorite characters to watch on Heroes. Creating a back-story and a history between the two was a brilliant idea. Together they have what one would call GOLD, a kind of chemistry gold that brings to mind the Veronica/Logan relationship from Veronica Mars. Again, being honest, I never saw this relationship coming, but maybe I'm just really slow like that. Though I sadly didn't get my vicarious smoochies last Monday, I did get them last night and boy was it worth the wait.

Elle: We can't take what we want anymore!
Sylar: Says who?
*Commence totally hot kissing scene

Sylar and Elle finally moving forward with their tense and edgy relationship brought to mind the scene in Dexter when him and Lilah had their first creepy, sadistic serial killer sex scene. Albeit, that was HBO and far more grotesque (coughtotallyhotcough) and detailed than NBC's strangely sweet kissing scene. Still, the verdict is in: a romance between two semi-creepy and psychotic (and lets not forget sexy) criminals is Number 1 on the Must See Hotness chart.
As a side thought: I was wracking my brain daily as to who future Sylar's baby momma might be and it seems we have a winner! Now all I need to do is figure out why they named him Noah...

On another note, I feel like I am obligated to again discuss the greatness of Supernatural this season. I fear I am going to be forced to watch last Thursday's episode (Heaven and Hell) for the fourth time tonight when Tina and Katie come over for our weekly Buffy night. But it's so frakkin' good, I don't really mind that much. The season just gets better and better and again (with a small amount of fear of sounding even more nerdy than I already do), Angels vs. Demons, coolest story line ever! And since I have already raved about one smooching scene in this post, I won't go on and on about the Dean and Anna baby-making scene in the Impala (pssssitwastotallyawesome). Oh Dean...*swoon*. Ok, composing myself...

The last order of business (which includes your SotD) involves another thrilling CW show, Smallville. Yes, I know it's been on for eight (!) years and it's getting old. I feel ya. In fact, I felt ya about three seasons ago when I finally stopped watching. But let's review the facts of this new and improved season:

1) Lana is gone. Already this makes the show ten times better.
2) Justin Hartley, aka Green Arrow, is a regular. They basically took a smelly, rotting growth (Lana) and replaced it with beautiful, healing man-hotness.

3) Lois Lane. Yes, she was a bit annoying a first but she has grown on me and the budding romance between her and Clark is very interesting and exciting (and often times hilarious) to watch.

4) The Chloe/Jimmy story line is also very fun to watch, especially with the addition of Doomsday...

5) Doomsday, played by the devilish Sam Witwer, the only creature that can defeat Superman. They are seriously bringing out the big guns this season.

And those are just a few of the improvements seen this season. The hollow, black void that was Lex Luther's does tend to put a damper on things, but it's not as bad as I previously thought. All the exciting new characters usually distract me from missing one of my favorite villains, though it makes me feel slightly guilty. He is Lex Luther, after all. One must always miss him when he's not around causing trouble for our man of blue and red.

Anyhow, last Thursday's episode BLEW me away. Yes, I used all caps. Deal with it. The Cloverfield/Blair Witch opening scene was totally awesome and a great way to spice things up. It really gave the episode a doomed feeling (get it, doomed? As in DOOMSDAY! Mwahahaha..ok, I'm done now). But the very best part of the episode was the end sequence, which I have supplied for you below. Not surprisingly, they used another Vast song to bring out the completely helpless and sorrowful emotions of the montage. Vast is fastly becoming one of my favorite bands. They were already used in a previous Smallville episode and also in an Angel episode. Saying their sound is hauntingly beautiful doesn't even begin to cover it. Your SotD is Don't Take Your Love Away, from the end sequence.

Don't Take Your Love Away
By: Vast

I am looking for an inspiration
And I think I found it in your heart
It's the kind of thing you get when you're not looking
It's the kind of thing you had from the start

Put me on a ship that is sinking
On a voyage to an untamed land
Take away the freedoms I wanted
I understand

Please, don't take your love away from me
Don't take your love away from me
Please don't take your love away from me

Please don't take your love from me
Please don't take your love from me

Put me inside flesh that is dying
A ghost that wanders without rest
Buried by desires and weakness
I understand

Please, don't take your love away from me
Don't take your love away from me
Please don't take your love from me
Please don't take your love from me

Thoughts on Heroes

Whew! You know, I think no matter how far this show strays from a linear and clear storyline, I am still going to be entranced by it. It has its flaws and I am non-stop frustrated and confused while watching this amazing hour of television, but it's just that; amazing. I can't sit back on my couch, I have to lean forward, as if I am trying to strain closer and closer to solving the mystery of these characters and the events surrounding each and every one of them. I can't pick up the phone, I can't get up for ice cream, I can't look away from the screen. What the f**k is going on?! Who's behind all this craziness? What's happening to my favorite characters? Why am I just LOVING Sylar right now?

Ok so, the show runners have at least learned something from the problematic and over-the-top confusing and dare I say *crappy* second season. They have learned to give us some answers every once and awhile instead of keeping us perturbed and discouraged throughout a whole season. Last night they finally showed us who is behind all the villainous events for this season (well, maybe, who knows about other players we haven't been shown yet). I won't say who, since I don't want to spoil anyone, but you'll know who I mean when you watch the episode. So, with that puzzle out of the way it now seems to be more about what our other villains and heroes will do. Which side will they take? Who will they team up with? Who exactly are the bad guys and who are the good guys? This is the QUESTION! As the previews say, the line between good and evil is getting blurred. And badly. This is the starting line of my frustration and anxiety. That question. "Who are the good guys and who are the bad guys?"

We are usually drawn to the good guys, that's a given. Sometimes though, we are intrigued and excited by certain bad guys also. So what happens when a bad guy that you just can't help but love to hate (this brings back memories and comparisons of Spike, from Buffy) sudden seems to be leaning toward the good side? Ah, Sylar, you are creepy but oh so intensely intriguing. I love this guy, like LOVE. Forgetting even that Zachary Quinto is flawless in this role, Sylar is a beautifully written character. Even when he was all bad, with not even a shred of lightness in him, he still took over every scene whenever he was in the frame. Your eyes couldn't help be drawn to him, sitting there with his creepy watch and creepy hat and dark, empty eyes. He was just so EVIL. Now though, he is even more fascinating, even more absorbing as he tries his best not to be a monster. Sudden, HRG (Clarie's father) is looking less and less fatherly, less and less a good guy, while Sylar seems wise and courageous and...good.

Everyone is changing. The Heroes world has gone topsy-turvy. The bad are turning good. And the good are turning bad. This change in my Heroes television world can be at times a good thing, as with Sylar, but I am seeing alot of bad in this change also. It's not always a good idea for a show to establish the Heroes and the Villains, allowing you to connect and become attached to certain Heroes, and then sudden, without much rhyme or reason, turn all the Heroes that you love into Villains.

Let's take Peter, my worst and biggest example of the troubles that can arise from turning your characters inside out. Unlike Mohinder, Nathan and Hiro (I'll get to him later), Peter DOES actually have a reason for his strange and villainous behavior. Future Peter is dead, but it seems that all his workings were for nothing and Present Peter was not stopped from taking Future Sylar's abilities and therefore changed into a potential Villain. Ah, what a mess! This is painful for me, the viewer, to watch as one of my favorite and most loving Heroes is turned into a monster, a bad guy. I know many people saw Hiro as the heart and soul of the Heroes, but to me, Peter played that role. Hiro, though undeniably good, was naive and at times, unwise and hasty in his actions. Peter made mistakes, but he was always moving forward, always searching to help, always kind and loving, even to the people that didn't deserve it. And now...now he needs to kill, needs to take instead of give, full of anger and madness instead of love and caring. To me, his was the worst possible loss to the side of good.

And now also, it seems that Hiro may even be going down that road. Again, so as not to spoil anything, why did he do that?!!!! Ok, there is most likely a reason behind his *BIG* action. Maybe even a really good plan. But what if there isn't?? And also, if there isn't, then it may give cause to the little scene between himself and Ando that he saw when he flitted to the future a couple episodes ago. I mean, that kind of reaction on Ando's part certainly makes sense to me. What's happening to our Heroes? Why is Hiro suddenly on board with hanging with the Villains? Forget all the behind the scenes bullshit that we finally know more about, what's going to happen to Mohinder? Why is he going to hurt Nathan in the next episode? Why is he so BAD right now? I mean, just because you're becoming a icky reptile demon-like creature, doesn't mean you have to be all MEAN. Seriously. And Nathan, what's in his future? I mean besides lots of sex with Ali Larter, being president and possibly being murdered by his own brother. He now knows that God has nothing to do with his abilities, so that path is closed to him but what will he do now? Everyone seems to be wanting to get rid of their abilities, but that wish seems to be bringing only more trouble and pain. If you don't want to be a monster and use your ability for evil, then...just use it for GOOD! Tracy or Nikki or whoever you are...go freeze a freaking BAD GUY!! Stop whining that you killed an annoying reporter and go make amends for it! Seeking Mohinder and trying to get rid of your powers is only going to lead to badness, I'll tell you right now. Or, if you're just plain lazy, stay at home and have lots of sex with Nathan, cause that man is super fine. Have him fly you up into the clouds for fun, yet probably chilly, cloud sex. I wouldn't say no to that.

Anyway, I digress again. A couple other thoughts before I let you go: Happy to see Adam again. He's a great character, always causing strife and fun and interesting scenarios with the other characters. Plus, he's super cute. Angela Petrelli, seeming to be trying to help, but only making things worse for herself and for others. I don't think things are going to end well for her. *Shrug*. Claire, she is becoming even more annoying than Meredith on Grey's Anatomy. She is causing trouble and her seeking out Villains is just going to lead to more of it. Not to mention, it's clear she is seeing a change in her father, HRG. It's possible that his betrayal is what leads her to bad hair and Villains in the future. I don't even want to think about what will happen if she runs into Peter somehow. That will be the straw that causes her world of good and light to finally crumble. And Parkman and Speedster, can't WAIT for that meeting.

Ok, I have rambled too long and must return to work. Please, tell me your thoughts on Heroes.