Doomed

So, due to the blackness of my own love life swirling around my head every second of the day, I'm feeling the "doomed relationship" today. I mean, is there anything better than a doomed relationship? It's forbidden and doomed and all...dramatic. It's like a car wreck, you just can't look away, even though you REALLY don't want to see it. What can you do but watch and wince and half cover your eyes in a pitiful attempt to shield your fragile psyche from the traumatic event. You watch it, and your eyes are never the same. You live it...and you are never the same. So, here's to the best doomed relationship I have ever seen and loved and been traumatize by.

Buffy: No, if you have something to say, say it. Angel, drop the cryptic, you're scaring me.

Angel: I've been thinking... about our future. And the more I do, the more I feel like us — you and me — being together is unfair to you.

Buffy: Is this about what the Mayor said? Because he was just trying to shake us up.

Angel: He was right.

Buffy: No. No, he wasn't. He's the bad guy.

Angel: You deserve more. You deserve something outside of demons and darkness. You should be with someone who can take you into the light. Someone who can make love to you.

Buffy: I don't care about that.

Angel: You will. And children.

Buffy: Children? Can you say jumping the gun. I killed my goldfish.

Angel: Today. But you have no idea how fast it goes, Buffy. Before you know it, you'll want it all. A normal life.

Buffy: I'll never have a normal life.

Angel: Right. You'll always be the Slayer. But that's all the more reason why you should have a real relationship instead of this- this freakshow. I didn't mean that.

Buffy: I wanna go.

Angel: I'm sorry. Buffy... you know how much I love you. It kills me to say this.

Buffy: Then don't. Who are you to tell me what's right for me? You think I haven't thought about this.

Angel: Have you? Rationally?

Buffy: No. Of course not. I'm just some swooning little school girl, right?

Angel: I'm trying to do what's right here. I'm trying to think with my head instead of my heart.

Buffy: Heart? You have a heart? It isn't even beating.

Angel: Don't.

Buffy: Don't what? Don't love you? I'm sorry. You know what? I didn't know that I got a choice in that. I'm never gonna change. I can't change. I want my life to be with you.

Angel: I don't.

Buffy: You don't want to be with me? I can't believe you're breaking up with me.

Angel: It doesn't mean that I don't...

Buffy: How am I supposed to stay away from you?

Angel: I'm leaving. After the Ascension. After it's finished with the Mayor and Faith. If we survive, I'll go.

Buffy: Where?

Angel: I don't know.

Buffy: Is this really happening?